sleep is so good i cannot resist it when i am at home so today i kinda slept like 14 hours :c
today i listened to my ta’s talk on some amazing physics about multiple universes and modeling dark energy and dark matter in some ridiculous mathematical way and it was so inspiring like damn
life is one big puzzle
i get to be professor layton of the universe
but i got so much to work on shit
i gotta start reading
after finals i guess :c
today my mind started wandering and i realized i never really stick with anything and i don’t even have a proper dream or anything?? like i’d want to go to space but it’s not like i’m doing anything for that other than waiting for it to get commercialized?? and like i’m studying astrophysics just cos it’s interesting like i don’t even know if it’s gonna be a fun job??
but whatever i guess cos life’s not that serious?? i mean i like it just fine and i want to learn more and i can’t really think of any job i’d want to do for however long i live other than becoming professor layton and solving puzzles lol.
when i was a kid i wanted to be an art teacher but damn i don’t wanna teach kids art like sheesh. when i was in middle school i wanted to be a housewife cos i thought they just play at home all day but damn they just do chores all day and have to actually cook good. like my dream changes so frequently i don’t think i’m serious about anything???? in junior yr i said i wanted to be a pharmacist cos ap chem was pretty interesting and i liked their nice coats but now that i think back it sounds really boring?
so like maybe astro is the thing for me cos i’ve been sticking with it for like what 3 and a half years or so now?? tho i barely read anything or keep up and i’m often falling asleep in my astro classes so i wonder if i even care at all????
what am i doing?????????????????
i remember one time when i was in this room with a lot of other kids(?) and a few of them were huddled around a computer and playing some “sick hip hop beats and freestyling” (haha i don’t know what i’m saying!) but they were high as fuck and so it was pretty bad
so where i’m going with this is that even though i don’t remember much there was one line spat out and it was so good, so good, that i think i’ll remember it for the rest of my life.
at the end of this one asian kid’s flow, there were these words
"and i gotta say…hey."